And so, i've become a mother to the cutest little baby.

haha..

every mum thinks her baby as the greatest, so please excuse my 1st sentence.

i'm really really proud of my baby.

somehow, i used to think nothing of motherhood. like ive never been so high/low over something as much as how im feeling since delivery.

like you get paranoid over every lil thing. you get excited/ happy over small movements your baby makes.

its overwhelming i tell you.

when i saw Sasha smile the first time, i felt like crying, when i hear Sasha cry for the first time in the ops theatre, i cried too. when i couldnt breastfeed, i cried. when i saw vomit for the first time, my heart raced, and i wanted to cry too. when i saw how rough the nurse was with my baby, i wanted to cry too. when i got injured because sasha had latch wrongly, i wanted to cry too. cos i blame myself for no experience, she's a baby, how would she know. every little think makes my heart melt. like, am i doing enough for this little precious.

no one will have this feeling, only mothers.

not even daddies. cos for 9-10 months of pregnancy, you eat with her, sleep with her, have fun with her, bathe with her, walk with her, watch tv with her, not one sec she's apart from you.

she was all save and well protected in the tummy and when she's out and open to potential hazards, you just wanna do all you can to protect her.

this is mother love, the real unconditional love.

every sec, i'm just about her. when i'm away from her, i feel weird. i keep imagining things, her safety and all. like if she's hungry or is she sleeping too long, etc.

my dearest, mummy will always be here for you.

HongKong

H O N G K O N G

H E R E . I . C O M E

leaving for hongkong on the 5th August - 8th August

its gonna be the first time hubs and i leave on a jetplane..

hehs.

4yrs together and this is the 1st time ever.

just so many know, his profession doesnt allow him to leave the country as and when he likes during the season.

and this time, his club and coach being really thoughtful people

gave him off so that we can go on a mini honeymoon before my daughter comes along.

by the time jer's season end, would be the time we welcome baby and wont be able to fly.

wanted to go Taiwan cos twas the initial plan to fly there with my gfs this year end. at least i will have a taste of what the girls will enjoy when they are there in late oct.

but....

flights fully booked.

sigh.

our second suggestion was bali from jer's friend who works in CTC, but we wanted more of a shopping paradise, bangkok was too boring.

all our past vacations were short trips to beaches and resorts and thought for a change we should go somewhere with a different agenda altogther.

and so, hongkong it is.

=)

affordable, able to FLY together, shopping and fooding!!

in about a week time. . .

cant wait. . .

=)

and thank you hubby for making this happen despite your busy schedules.

i love you.

i'm customarried.

DEAR FRIENDS!!

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loving my work station

one of the random nights dinner at my xiao gugu house, organized by jiawei.
we totally love her cooking, its like she hardly cook and the only time we get to taste it is during cny.
she cooked specially for us.

tired but fulfilling life.

before &
after

work's been good. =) thats one thing i look forward to everyday.

no longer have that "what-the-hell-am-i-suffering-working-for" thinking.
working for myself and no other reasons.
i'm enjoying my space and flexibility and responsibilities.
and that yannie and angie works just one street away!
met them for lunch ytd.
yannie picked me up bout 12.30 at my office and together with angie we had a little retail therapy, ate at cartel, had a smoking good time.
and by the time i reached back twas bout 2.10pm
lol.
good that i getta spend time with them even when we work at different company.
oh, the night before our lunch date, yan and i were chilling with angie under her block. time passed so fast when i'm with them, when i left twas already 1am...
my parents are staying at east coast chalet cos the new house wont be ready till 1dec 2009. they checked in on tuesday and will check out on the 1st.
they were staying at one of my uncle's place bout 1week before that but decided to book chalet instead cos they felt bad imposing on them.
and i've been i'm staying at jer's. reag's staying at yan's.
and i miss my parents alot, alot.
i miss the times spent with my family.
the first day after i stayed over at jer's, my mum called me and chatted on the phone for damn long, talking about nonsense and updating me about what was going on for them.
twas by far the longest chat i had with her over the phone, cos usually we'll just talk at the kitchen or over dinner. lol.
just yesterday, my dad told me to eat more. he said, san bi bah (in hokkien, i think it means scrawny). (he must be kidding!)
i love them so much.

played mahjong with angie and ser at yan's new place last friday. her house damn nice! there's a lap pool by the side and a roof terrace on the forth level of her house, her room is on the 3rd level with walk in wardrobe and toilet!!!
=( my room only has a toilet, the wardrobe - dont need to walk in. lol.
played till bout 2am..
then back to jers.

days when i'm down, i usually head down kallang for some lone time, surf the net and have a hot cup of caramel machiato. thats the best way for me to calm myself.
for the past few days, i wished work didnt end. i felt better working and getting my mind off stuffs that really pull my mood down to the lowest.
i dunno.
people say when youre getting married and the days get closer, you'll feel really cranky and all.
but good thing there's my hen's night and sisters day coming.
thats like the only thing i'm excited now.
sometimes you realise things and it gets you thinking of life after marraige.
is that really what i want, now.
i'm still excited, but just not as much as compared to two months ago.
but the girls have been giving me their utmost support and encouragement.
i love them so.

look what has work done to me.............

this is prolly gonna be my longest post for a very long time...

i dont even have the time to upload pictures.

=(

prolly more updates after 12dec.

loads of planning, meeting suppliers and the venue manager.

back to work for now..

the girls

we love you nora

the boys

never ending champagne

till we get high

The post exam week.

last paper was on 3rd november.

fell really sick the next day.

baby picked me and we went over to nora place after the paper and we just hang out there.

faizal and kas just came back from a flight so we decided to eat out.

headed to newton for seafood.

by that time, i was already sneezing endlessly and my head was spinning real bad.

and the plan was actually to go for some drinks.

couldnt take it further and we headed home right after.

i thought i would be ok after a good night's sleep and so the next day, i accompanied jer to work.

but by about 2plus, i was having the feverish feeling, so jer took me to the docs.

spent $55 for a blooody same old flu and antibiotic medicine.

i used to see doc at east side and would recover really fast and his charges are like the max i paid was $35.

west side is so not a place i like to live.

lol.

and i'm not getting any better.

rested for thurs and friday.

Fri: baby picked me up after his work and we went to spotlight PS to shop for stuffs for the ROM.

met yan and angie at simpang. they are really such a sweet heart.

giving me encouragement and ideas for the ROM planning.

i know i can count on them, and they will go all out to help me and that makes them the best sisters.

aimin grandpa just passed on and her work schedule makes it hard for her to join in the planning, but her constant smses makes me feel that she's there as well.

lim is going for her grad trip and so she's been busy working and planning for the trip.

ser company is always exploting her, so her work schedule also doesnt permit her to meet us that often to plan.

but all in all, i know they are always there for me without me asking.

i think i define sisters as the ones who has been there for you.

always there and at all cost wanna make things right.

who enjoy the things as much as you do, such as clubbing, chilling out tog, every little thing just excites us when we get together.

and thats why i wont wanna miss anyone of them out in this important planning phase of my life.

and after speaking to angie and yan, i'm so looking forward to that week.

hens night, then they gonna take a day off before i officially become MRS. chiang.

we gonna do personalised wedding favors for the guest, that would take up almost the whole morning, followed "tea-party" at my place, then mani pedicure prolly town or thompson plaza, then last min shopping and a nice dinner. and the sisters gonna stay over at my place!!

i'm sooo excited!!!!!!

wont be seeing jer for that whole 24-48hours. so prolly gonna miss him so much since we havent been apart for so damn long.

.

meeting yan and angie during lunch time (i officially start work tmr, tsk!) and also after work tmrw to go shop for the sisters dress.

jer is gg for the sleague awards night tmr.

wonder what it feels like working as a perm staff at dad's.

its like i feel that people are watching.

knowing that youre their boss's daughter, they expect more.

like i wish i had a choice to work elsewhere like with angie and yan.

=(((((

but anyhow, our workplace is sooo near, i can meet them everyday for lunch.

plus baby is also working nearby.

and reag too..

it feels like family again!

lol. dunno what i'm talking. but i just feel some mix feelings inside.

maybe cos i havent enjoyed enough.

talking about enjoying, jer and i signed up a taiwan wedding photography package at vivo city yesterday.

it's $2888 but they gave us a discount $2488 plus loads of freebies cos we agreed to let them use our photo as advertisement and their portfolio.

it will be open for 3years and we need to fly over to get it done within this three years and i'm so looking forward to our taiwan trip!!

baby is thinking maybe this dec.

but we need to save up for the air tickets and accomodation first.

weeeeeeeeeeee!

went to nora's farewell party at obar after simpang. the party was actually cancelled due to some misunderstanding nora had with her cousins, then they resume the plan again.

we didnt wanna go already cos i was still sick but then we thought, when will be the next time we gonna party with nora after she leaves for Dubai.

we changed our mind, no matter how sick i felt, for one last time, we wanna be there for her.

she was so happy.

most of the time i was just sitting around cos my flu and throat were really bad.

i have just one glass of champagne and half glass of beer and some chips, i started coughing and sniffing.

our night ended prematurely.

=(

but nora understands.

vivo to get the bears done.

then movie at night with jer's bross, reag and yan too.

paranormal activities.

its the scariest movie ever.

till now, i'm still traumatized.

its a lazy sunday.

2plus pm and we are still lazing on our bed.

heading out for "brunch" soooon..

lol.

the halloween 2009

ben's bday

ben's house warming

together with lots of drinks

and of cos cakessssssssssss

and some pictures that i thought they dressed really nice:

just us chilling out and people-costume watching
card drinking games
and food after food after food.

hardrockcafe for Kumar Night

i swear he/she is really good. but if you are the sensitive kind, i suggest you dont go there. cos "she" is really racist during the show, but off show, he is really nice.

my fat moments due to over snacking while studying

the boys who didnt dress to the halloween theme

the girls who didnt dress to the theme

but we still love each others' company.

well these are some of the past happenings before and in between exams..

stole all these pictures from yannie and kas phone.

my mum took my cam with her so that explain the lack of photos updates lately.

lol.

anyhow, now that the exams are over,

i'm a sick bird.

and to make things worst.

i'm starting work in less than a week.

=(

no time for fun...

but then again, working means more income.

more income means more shopping.

been deprived of shopping for too damn long having to prioritize budget for rom.

love-hate.

one paper down!

yeay

i prefer studying at jer's house.

cos i'll just stay in his room.

no cable tv so cant watch all the hongkong drama.

lol.

focus better that way.

hehs. been doing so for the past week. and i feel so well taken care of.

breakfast with jer before he go for work. then he'll pack lunch back before heading for his training.

his mum will prepare snacks for teabreak.

then dinner together.

all ido is study study study.

surf net and sleep inbetween.

heh.

i'm giving myself excuse to snack all the sinful tidbits for this week only.

lol.

i need to slim down for 12dec!!!

gee.

back to books for now.

=)

taking a little time away from stresss...

found these pictures in my folder.

new house renovation in progress..

cant wait for it to be ready.

i'm always anxiously looking forward to things.

always cant wait cant wait cant wait.

lol.

impatient. tsk.

anyway, jer had a match at tpy stadium last night (second last match) didnt wanna miss it and so pick nora and fadhil and head down to the stadium tog.

alighted the boys off before heading to tpy central park, we were 2hours away from the game. we just sat there and chatted.

time passed really quickly.

my parents came to watch the match as well.

gombak won balestier!!!

4-0

home-sweet-home after.

and thats when my dad asked when my exams ending. and asked if i could start work at his company soon.

last paper on 3rd nov. start work 9nov (mon)

guess i have to put my grad trip on hold till after my solemnization on 12 dec.

so many things unplanned.

everything cramped up.

feeling jittery.

lol.

but good thing i have my gown and shoes and make-up artist done. so i'm just left with the miscellaneous and invitation confirmation.

and of cos my hens night!

hehs.

CANT WAIT!

=)