cramps...............

its been the lousiest day of the month.

my day 1.

its been so long since i had cramps and the worst part someone had to piss me off.

and i screamed and i cried. i get very emotional when i am having my menses. that includes laughing as well.

i was helping my mum cut the pork belly for dinner and there was a little nipple on thelayer of fats. i couldnt help but kept laughing and i was alone in the kitchen.

i brought it out to show reag and yan too.

lol.

my fluctuation of moods and pain really undescribable.

in times like this hugs and sweet nothings isnt enough for me, the constant care and concerns does wonders. and i thought twas irritating back then.

i recalled someone who frantically ran around like "mad dog" searching panadol and mineral water and checking on me every 10mins to make sure i was ok.

and i actually told him off to stop it and give me some peace.

how ignorant and babaric i was.

i mean twas his sincerity and inexperience not knowing what to do when a girl is in pain.

and its times like this when i'm in deep pain and no one is bothering that i miss that "irritating" gestures. and actually realise those concerns eased the pain abit, be it psychologically or not, it helped.

girls are indeed hard to please.

i dont miss the guy. i just missed being cared for when i'm sick or having cramps.

its with consistency and time that one can prove his patience and endless love for the person.

not via sms of "my endless love"

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just rubbed my tummy with hong you and hope its gonna be as helpful as pleasing words.

and the fiance is snoring away as i'm typing this.

how not to be pissed.

lol.