the before and after. doesnt make much difference even after putting on make up. where are you my smiles. hehs.
oh well, emptiness still.
sheesh.
just sitting by, thinking breathing waiting every sec with agony. . .

i've sorted out my thoughts.
but i dont know how long more i can hang on.
it gets too painful hoping. . .

is staying as friends for now really the best choice. . .?

argh.......

wierd eh. one moment i'm all strong and smiling, next i'm pondering too much and being whiney.
you wont understand peeps. prolly only married couples who split would. loads of crapppp. dunno wat i'm saying lah. hehs. but yea. anyhow, i guess its not the normal kind of Breakup you think it is. its one that still has strong chemistry, just that we've come to a point where we dunno where's the next level. tsk. ok. thats the nicer way of putting it. the cruel way would be love caused us to be blind, we prolly thought we're in love with each other's everything, time do reveal the good and bad, and we've realised some character clashes at this point of time.
oh well oh well, if anything, i guess i'm the one who's more flaws. sheesh. *smacks myself. hehs.

to stay blissful in a rship needs acceptance from both parties.

and so, we thought splitting could help.

but is it.
i'm torn.
someone, kill me pls!!!!!!!

my little indulgence.
and yes, that's a comb on my head.

hehs.

i'm going crazy.

shouts*