i've been watching too much star world channel when i'm home. addicted to it. hehs. okok, it sounded as if i've watched it like hours. the amount of time cant be compared to the amount of hours i'm on the road. Lol.

one of my favourite program now, for better or for worse.

bare rooftop to an elegant evening to remember. awwww... my dream engagement. =) creating something out of nothing planned by your husband-to-be together with a team of trustworthies!

not really a rooftop wedding, but a beach or poolside i pictured since i was a little girl. not that i'm longing to get married. my ideal age would be 27. i was told by a fortune teller that i will get hitched in year 2010 or 2013. but then again, we cant really plan stuffs like that you know. what if, so sway, i dont have a bf in both years stated? Lol. will i be single for the rest of my life?

i'm always so envious of newly weds. but then i'm too skeptical about maintaining a trustable relationship, let alone marriage. not that i'm having problems with mine, but seeing too many examples keeps me wary of guys. its just wierd lah, when girls ask guys to hang out, we are merely treating them as our bestfriend. but when guys ask girls out, we tend to view it as DATING. it takes hell a long time to trust, but just that few seconds to lose it. and again, i'm linking things up, trust relies very much on individual confidence level. see if you are one with great confidence, you wouldnt be afraid of externals, thus give your 101% trust to your partner. but sad to say, as much as i put a brave front, my confidence level has never exceeded more than 49% of what i should have of myself. i recalled ash and i used to have this super low confidence period and we'd just keep lamenting on how bad we look that week, and will try ways to slim down and all. "eating healthy" taking long walks instead of lunching nearby the office. haha. and guess what, we went from a 49kg to 45kg in like few weeks. sheesh. how unhealthy we were then. everywhere we go, people went "why are you so skinny". our jeans size went down two sizes. we share food when we decide to binge. and our snacks would only be wholemeal multigrain cereals. thats how extreme girls can be. but i'm glad to say we're back to a healthy weight now. plus the miracle cream, i'm contented that i have at least half of my confidence level. else, i swear it would have been pit bottom.

ok i know this entry is so random silly.

". . .promise to never be above you or be below you, but always be beside you. . ."