And so, i've become a mother to the cutest little baby.

haha..

every mum thinks her baby as the greatest, so please excuse my 1st sentence.

i'm really really proud of my baby.

somehow, i used to think nothing of motherhood. like ive never been so high/low over something as much as how im feeling since delivery.

like you get paranoid over every lil thing. you get excited/ happy over small movements your baby makes.

its overwhelming i tell you.

when i saw Sasha smile the first time, i felt like crying, when i hear Sasha cry for the first time in the ops theatre, i cried too. when i couldnt breastfeed, i cried. when i saw vomit for the first time, my heart raced, and i wanted to cry too. when i saw how rough the nurse was with my baby, i wanted to cry too. when i got injured because sasha had latch wrongly, i wanted to cry too. cos i blame myself for no experience, she's a baby, how would she know. every little think makes my heart melt. like, am i doing enough for this little precious.

no one will have this feeling, only mothers.

not even daddies. cos for 9-10 months of pregnancy, you eat with her, sleep with her, have fun with her, bathe with her, walk with her, watch tv with her, not one sec she's apart from you.

she was all save and well protected in the tummy and when she's out and open to potential hazards, you just wanna do all you can to protect her.

this is mother love, the real unconditional love.

every sec, i'm just about her. when i'm away from her, i feel weird. i keep imagining things, her safety and all. like if she's hungry or is she sleeping too long, etc.

my dearest, mummy will always be here for you.