some random pictures taken over the week.

baby julian and i gloomy face after afternoon nap/ towndrive/ nightdrive/ cocky truck (Lol)/ Lazysunday at Jer's/ dresslovin

where do i start? hmm. i realised blogging is just but a habit. when u start u cant stop. but when time doesnt permit, u just stop too long. tmr's always an answer when asked about when i'm gonna post a new entry again. sheesh. blame it on my laziness. anyhow, was so free this morning i decided to explore facebook. haha. hell alot of applications and add ons eh. i remembered logging on times before but i just logged out right away cos i was too lazy. well, i think i'm getting a lil hook onto facebook now. haha. some applications were so funny i *laughed-out-loud alone. my eyes are deteriorating!!! been spending too much time psp-ing and online shopping without rest for my pooor eyes. its gotten so bad that my vision gets really blurred at night when i drive even with my new contact lens. like i have to squint my eyes many times to get better vision. but its hard not to touch the psp and my lappie. =(( baby's getting worried for me too. good thing the psp's with him now. till he download more new games and movies for me, i shall take a good break for my bootiful eyes. ;p

had a good heart to heart talk with baby last night rgd his studies and my fears and the future. there's this thing about me. i dont really like expressing my views straight to anyone but prefer texting it instead. i've been trying to avoid that topic* with baby but somehow, circumstances made me surfaced it. he's been really really patient with my random crankiness giving in all this while to me whining too much and being all hot up at times or the sudden silence from me. i believe no one could embrace those flaws of mine as much as he's coping. i'm feeling too bad, we texted the night away. i just couldnt bring myself to speak to him over the phone. i feel like a total toooot for not being sensitive enough to him yet having him not complaining one bit. he's the nicest bf i swear. he taught me aplenty. like i never knew speaking up helps so much. i used to keep everything inside and just burst out at one go after suppressing too long and leave or disappear making my partner looking frantically for me, to no avail till i resurface myself again. i guess that explains why i was like a jailbird then*. since being with jer i learnt not to ignore but to find solutions. to talk. to voice out in any means comfortable. he showed me how a rship would work with mutual respect and compromising. being there yet at the same time giving space. thank you for everybit.

i fear of losing you, yes i do. knowing the past, and the predictable future. yet i just want to be here to help and support come what may. you havent done me any wrong since we met. but its the things i experience with my friends daily that got me thinking. i cant help but associate you with the ex bfs. how they are doing stuffs behind their current gfs. i cant help it. your endless assurance helped, a bit. but still its my inquisitive personality that kept my mind busy over nothing. i know i've been worrying too much knowing i spent every single min with you besides on timeswhere u were training or in camp. your assuring calls and daily dosage of smses should keep my mind off negatives. yet, i'm just too turtle. but a promise given, i wont give up again.

baby surprised me in the morning at my place knowing i'm still a lil unstable. haha. anyway i was facebook-ing. Lol. remember i said i was Laughing-out-loud alone, i hope he didnt see me with some wierd grins, like some maddie when he pop in. haha. thankyou dear. he stayed for lunch and off he went back to camp. i didnt have cash out with me today!! sheesh. headed to jer to give a surprise back. haha. i went to jurong point while waiting for baby. it feels really empty with just your cards with you. went to john little to get some toiletries and headed for manicure. went back to the stadium to meet baby.

home-sweet-home.